An Open Letter To The Friends I've Lost

To my friends that I've grown up with or friends that carried me and supported me through a phase of my life and have moved on, leaving me behind, this is to you.



Thank you for being there for me in those phases of life. Thank you for texting me, inviting me out, going out for coffee and investing time in me as a person. I have such a love and appreciation for you doing life with me, even if it was for just a little while. I loved doing life with you, hearing how you were and creating memories that I cherish, even today. You were an incredible friend to me and I can't thank you enough for that.

I am the friend and person that invests all of who I am into friendships, when I care, I care a lot and I hope that you knew that about me. So when I was going through major changes in life or just needed someone to rely on or reach out to, I would reach out to you. But you weren't in that same place with me anymore.

I never expected you to stick around forever or be a part of my life through all of the phases I would experience but I think some part of me had hoped that you would. You are an in-perfect person, as am I, and so when something else came along in life or another person grabbed your attention you let it consume you and your time, which left me in the dust.

That hurt me.

I guess what's confuses me the most is why did I get dropped? Was I not what you needed in a friend anymore? Why do I still hear from you when you want something from me? Did we grow too different? I'm not sure.

I never expected to stay best friends, as much as this may not seem like it, but when you do text me and say that you still feel close to me I can't help but wonder if you feel close to the person you knew a year or three years ago and not the person I am today. Because you really don't know that person and haven't taken the time or effort to get to know that person, even though I would completely happy to let you get to me all over again.

After all of this though I know I need to thank you. Thank you for helping teach me when I need to let go of friendships. For recognizing when I've become too invested and my feelings are being hurt. Thank you for helping me grow as a person and know what it means to have an incredible friendship, even for just a short time.  Thank you for helping me learn that I need people and friends in my life that are close to or even just supportive of the stage of life I am at and are happy to be a part of it even if they aren't there themselves.

Thank you for being my friend, I am truly not angry and genuinely appreciate all that you did for me and I wish only the best for you. I hope you succeed in all of your en-devours. I hope your biggest and wildest dreams to come true and I hope that you have friends around you that support and love you, like you once did for me.

Sincerely,
Your Old Best Friend